Rose, your writing (even the X, Insta stuff) has reminded me of such a tender spot within myself - I am honestly so grateful for coming across you. And because you gave me this, I simply have to tell you: this world needs you. Even in your pain, as horrible as that sounds (i’m sorry). But beyond that, I’m convinced: There is SO MUCH for you in this world. So much joy. Of course I don’t know you personally, but from only reading you: you will widen again 🌹🌹🌹 I’m not even worried about
In many ways I, naturally, wish this wasn't relatable; but it is in a way that makes me deeply grateful for you writing it, even if I also wish this wasn't the situation you are in. Sending good thoughts and I true belief you'll find a next step that works for you and your life - and a step after that, and a step after that, and a step after that...
The last line is so poignant. I’ve felt and still feel that to a degree—not trusting your perception of reality or yourself etc. At this point, I feel like we’ve watched each other grow up (the fact that it’s been 10+ years still feels criminal), and I’ve seen you put yourself back together with care many times before, so I don’t just think it’s possible, I know it is.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. It seemed like you’d beaten your demons once and for all. At least you’ve found your Prince Charming to sail into the sunset with. I’ve loved reading about your whirlwind romance. It’s something out of a fairytale. Finding the one really is like that, isn’t it? When you know you know.
The true black-holeness of the time spent in abusive relationships and the aftermath, the untranslatable horror and lack of return, the raggedness and foolishness in one that it exposes, is, very reasonably, death-wish inducing. There is a part of the soul that turns away from it, it's like living life with one eye closed all the time after until you get the gumption to stop hating the world for its irreversibility. Bumping into things, wanting to just find a place where you never have to engage in 3 dimensions again.
Rose, your writing (even the X, Insta stuff) has reminded me of such a tender spot within myself - I am honestly so grateful for coming across you. And because you gave me this, I simply have to tell you: this world needs you. Even in your pain, as horrible as that sounds (i’m sorry). But beyond that, I’m convinced: There is SO MUCH for you in this world. So much joy. Of course I don’t know you personally, but from only reading you: you will widen again 🌹🌹🌹 I’m not even worried about
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In many ways I, naturally, wish this wasn't relatable; but it is in a way that makes me deeply grateful for you writing it, even if I also wish this wasn't the situation you are in. Sending good thoughts and I true belief you'll find a next step that works for you and your life - and a step after that, and a step after that, and a step after that...
The last line is so poignant. I’ve felt and still feel that to a degree—not trusting your perception of reality or yourself etc. At this point, I feel like we’ve watched each other grow up (the fact that it’s been 10+ years still feels criminal), and I’ve seen you put yourself back together with care many times before, so I don’t just think it’s possible, I know it is.
I love you 🤍 and feel the same about you, seeing you build a life and assert yourself has been so wonderful
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I'm sorry, Rose 🤍 prayers
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. It seemed like you’d beaten your demons once and for all. At least you’ve found your Prince Charming to sail into the sunset with. I’ve loved reading about your whirlwind romance. It’s something out of a fairytale. Finding the one really is like that, isn’t it? When you know you know.
The true black-holeness of the time spent in abusive relationships and the aftermath, the untranslatable horror and lack of return, the raggedness and foolishness in one that it exposes, is, very reasonably, death-wish inducing. There is a part of the soul that turns away from it, it's like living life with one eye closed all the time after until you get the gumption to stop hating the world for its irreversibility. Bumping into things, wanting to just find a place where you never have to engage in 3 dimensions again.
Hope you're doing somehow ok, Rose.
beautifully written, praying for you on this journey to widen 🤍